Tuesday, 29 January 2019


I made this journal spread to try to take my mind away from constant rumination. I guess it's about feeling like I've had my wings snapped off. I don't know. I'm verbose to a fault, but on this I haven't got much that's clear enough to describe. Whatever the reason you might have for obsessive thoughts, I recommend making art as a kind of active meditation. It's much more interesting then just trying to focus on your breathing, and it follows the same principle of allowing thoughts to come and to go, without the need for judgement or engagement, and then returning thoughts back to the task at hand. Sometimes you get something shiny at the end as well. So that's nice. I said this on Instagram, but I've been tinkering with this spread for weeks now, and I still don't know if it's "complete". I keep thinking it needs words, but like I said, I haven't got any.

Mixed Media Journal Spread

January is a shit show and should be cancelled. But the ice in low sun, or persistant rain damaging the guttering on my old house still inspire something. I picked out some songs that might help if you need a push to get through to February. I know I do. Here we have Skunk Anansie putting the boot in. Morrissey being self indulgent, as if he ever wasn't. I'm trying out "Listening to Morrissey and Yet Being In Opposition to his Bigotry". Overwhelmingly I wonder: Is it possible or even Worth It? I'm On Fire by Bruce Springsteen has got be as close to perfection as it's possible to get in 2 minutes and 35 seconds. In Cairo by Hot Hot Heat is one from the vaults that works like a time machine to a past life. Tangles by Lady Lamb has an ache about it. 1stp Klosr from Reanimation is an essential piece of genius. Reanimation is the remix album that came after Linkin Parks' Hybrid Theory. I'm listening to it constantly, mainly because Hybrid Theory was the first album I bought for myself, and I'm 30 in a few days. I guess it's something about noticing the strangeness of time passing. And surpressed fury remaining the constant thread throughout the years. Porcupine Tree are a new and welcome discovery thanks to a new friend.

So, 2019. I'm dusting myself off and not about to fade away into insignificance just yet. Challenge accepted.

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